With this post I declare that I became a NEET!! LoL (what's there to be proud with became a NEET??)
I'm just lazying all day at home! Even my parent already dissapointed and doesn't know what they must do so I can be a little motivated. Well now my days just for sleep, eat, bath, reading novel or manga, watch anime or drama, then sleep again. Sometimes just messaging with some of my friend but doesn't want to meet them. Always give them a thousand reason how I don't want to go out.
At least I must be a fortunate person and must give my thanks to God that give me a great parent! They doesn't abandoned me or angry and hurt me. They just say they dissapointed with me and still good to me. Still give me their great love for the lazy me. And they don't demand anything from me. I'm sad that my parent had a daughter like me.
I know that I make them dissapointed. But that still don't make me had a little motivated to change my life. My friend and siblings also tried to make me change but I cannot. I don't know what's wrong with me. Before I still had a motivation to work or be a merchant and selling from home. But now I just don't want to do anything.
And you know what's more ridiculous from me? I'm a psychology college student!
A psychology person that studying about a habit and a reason about people life. I know many theory and method to change a habit or a thought of a person but I can't do it for myself!!! I can give many consultation or conseling for my friend but I can't do it for myself.
I know that people had a different perspective and that's what make me stubborn and indifferent with people around me. It's just like I'm observing all people around me but can't observing myself. I don't look myself in the mirror. But what's good from me? Because I don't care about people around me, I don't judge them. I don't criticize them and I hope the same from them. I don't want them to criticize my life even thought I know that I need it from them.
Well whatever people around me say, I just a lazy person that don't want to think about anything. I'm just really happy at least there's still people around me that love me and accept me, even though they disappointed with me that don't have a motivation to do anything.
This is my lazy life and I don't know if in the future something will change my life!!
